I frequently make myself the promise that I'm going to do something to change. And sometimes I do. For a while. I'll get all the right things from the grocery store and stock up the kitchen with healthy foods... then stop at Chipotle. I'll go to the gym several times in a row for my Monday/Wednesday zumba class... then blame the weather, being tired from the weekend, whatever, and miss. And it's not just the health aspect. I'll have motivations to meet new people or try new things and psyche myself out. I'll opt to keep to myself, to stick with the familiar. But I do blame the weight. I'll wear that when I'm thinner. I'll go to the beach more, I'l try skydiving... people won't be judging me then, right? That's not who I want to be. I want to be confident with who I am.
I obviously need something to sustain my motivation. I'm a (reasonably?) smart, logically kinda girl. I should be able to handle this. I can do this. I just need a little something extra. I need goals and I need to say them aloud. I need to get them out there in the world so there is some level of accountability in what I'm aiming for. There's a reason to keep going and keep trying, and for me, maybe this will be that reason.
My goals for creating this are thus:
1. practice the written word, like that adorable little alliteration right there!
2. build confidence (hopefully, this will work and I will accomplish things!)
3. get healthier (specific goals will be set by the end of February - see, hard [as in not flexible] goal)
4. track interesting thoughts I keep promising myself I will write down and hardly do
5. keep accoutability for trying new things (compile "bucket list" by end of February)
6. set career goals; discovering what I want to get out of my current job should give me motivation and that extra push to do my best at what I'm doing and avoid "skating by" - which I am completely guilty of succumbing to
7. become better at keeping in touch with friends, even when not for specific "events" or outings
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